Black weather ??am i??

when will happen if someone doing too many??
er...every time will give advice to others
be patience ....calm down...bla bla bla....
but end up...myself...BURN UP!!!don't even know how to control...
really Suck!!! really can't imagine i will shout!!
er...sound like ROAR...haha...lioness....swt!!
i think i really scared some of them!!
em....well...just felt sorry...
but i always remember one thing...
God look after what we had do...
even people not appreciate
but when the time come...i am the one to face God
and i am the one who need to tell God what had i do
@#$%^&*(#$%^&.....
is not easy to control own emotion when the bad feeling comes out
i HATE peoples who knows how to talk talk talk....
but end up ...no action...
orally sound super nice...can encourage others
but finally just end up complaining...here ...there...
haiz....=_=
had faced lot today...HATE this type of feeling...
hello Mr.emotional please just go away...

some just RAN away...
some just be GOOD....no comments ...no work!!!
some just like to use WORDS....bla bla bla...
i have no ideas?? ...end up NOTHING!!!
judgment??NO!!!...cause only God can judge us...
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE...
ooo...shit!!!!that is what i felt right now!!!
cause stomachache now...i think food poisoning??
tonight TOO NERVOUS....100% KAM CHEONG!!!
ran here and there...that what i remember!!
i can't imagine...
if i didn't do anything...what will happen??
i really don't know ....and i don't want to know too!!!!
cause the result will be very bad!!!
haiz.....
em....felt better after bla out everything....
but stomach still Pain!!!!
but one thing important....

GOD please always remain me to love others
even i get angry with them...
even they don't like me...i know!!!

Lord...without You...i can't do anything...
and thanks to friends that support and understand me..are around!!
i love you all...
Take good care!!!

been long....
worried about my FINAL....
had been busy too much....
3 weeks continuously...
but by God grace and mercy
i believe i can do well....
to prove that God is good...
Lord...i need Your love fall upon me!!

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...............
thing i want to shout out LOUD!!!!!!
don't complain but do....
don't just know how to look at others mistake... but look my own
don't just know how to advice other ....but do nothing!!
don't ever hurt other then say sorry...it no use!!!
don't just be good with everyone but not dare to take charge!
don't ever think ourselves is the best...then blaming others

I AM NOT THE BEST....
BUT I TRY MY VERY OWN BEST...
CAUSE I DO THIS FOR CHRIST
NOT FOR ANYONE....
want to complain just come to me...
don't ever speak underground

GOod friday night

before the service started
here's some of our CF m'bers...

Good Friday night service

Is my first time stayed in Kampar for this meaningful day

The GOOD FRIDAY…

Having sacrifice dinner in church before the Good Friday night service started

Have a great fellowship together with each other while having our dinner

Meet up lot of old friends that this whole semester didn’t see them…

Ha…finally meet them all up on Good Friday!!

Thanks God for everything…really touched again by the bible verses on the book of JOHN

The whole service on that night just remained me a lot of thing…

Loves from Jesus…sacrifice of Christ!! the pained and the harness

cried for very long...i don't know how and when my tear started to drop

when we watching the scene that Jesus crucified for us....

peoples of sins......

but it really a great realize that night...

just poured out the burden through my tear...

em...after that...i have a quiet time with God...

spend time with Him...

then end up to remembrance His death

Jesus Thank YOu

Thanks for the crucified
Thanks for the sacrifice
Thanks for loving us so deeply
Jesus Thanks for Your blood
wash our sin away...
Lord...Your dead had renew us again
God today You remained us again Your purpose
Lord Thanks for everything...
can't do anything ....
but just want to tell You Lord...
i love You...
Thanks .......

kampar Utar CF intro

Everything just goes so wonderful...
Thanks God for His wonderful plan
enjoyed lot with His arrangement
feel like i was in the sky
and fly up to God!!

and now let me intro my CF new image to you guys..
Welcome to kampar Utar Christian Fellowship
hope when you read
you will feel the warm and energetic from us
Join us when you are in kampar Utar
Join us as we..
jump
walk
sing
Let's MOVE IT TOGETHER FOR CHRIST!
because we are all body of Christ!!
shine for HIM in Utar
Thanks Jen sen ...poster designed by him...

previously intro to you all about our CF 1st tee...
and here is our FINAL design
hope you guys will like it!!
we will made in two color
black and white..
you can start ordering now...
the price will let you all know soon!!
buy one to represent you are Christian in Utar!!
encourage your friends to buy too..

and below is our CF new vision and theme on coming semester
guys...remember one thing...
bring the great message generation to generation
that's why WE all in Utar should be a good model
to our junior...
Passion in us...
energetic to serve GOd...
tell you one important thing..
serve God you will earn a lot...
cause God will bless you even more..

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and again...
intro to you all
our Kampar UTAR CF new committees faces...
the post handle by who...
have a look
and remember US!!!
as need any help just contact us...

and above is our 13 committees members...
do check on with us everything about CF
is our pleasure to help you
in Christ we are brother and sister
and below is our nice nice pictures...
haha..share with you guys...
prayer time when the new committees had voted out..

the new committees....
TOGETHER we are the best..

the old committees....
thanks boon wee and Michelle...

the new +old+FES worker=ee ling

new committees funny action take 1

new m'bers take 2

as we can see...
we all WELCOME you to our new family...
so>>>
please via our website today:
http://kampar.utarcf.org/en/main.php

p/s: thanks to my dear dear=kah yee...
help me up a lot with edited my pics above!
love u so much!!!

CF t-shirt design

designing our CF t-shirt...
em....anyone of you had any new idea about that?
ha...or any new image for that?
well....hope it can be done asap...
so that we will have our own t-shirt!!!
yeah!!
left your comment
how you think about this t-shirt

New bond in CF 09'

Firstly Thanks God for everything….
Lesson…difficulty…love…encouragement…hardness…
Well…had been faced up a lot before these…
By God grace…I had walk until today…ha!!i still alive as well…
Em…sounds bad huh…anyway…just want to share my thanksgiving…
Many things happen…for sure there is a reason…
And today God remained me again…
Words…how should we talk…
Is it the words that we speak…talk…share that can benefit others..
And I really learn the power of words…a simple word can really kill up a relationship…
That’s why…o pray to God….I can be a good leader that knows how to handle communication problem within each other’s…anyway…I believe in God…
And another important…spiritual growing..haha…is the most important things that I need to do..
Need to grow in own spiritual life…so that can hold up peoples around me!!
Em…well..Let’s come back to the sharing today….
finally we all enter week 12 on this semester…it shown that final exam is on mid too…
Em…by God’s wills…the new CF committees members had been chosen…
1/4 a special day…well… and is our CF AGM too…ha!!

the members ....

haha...waitting for voting....

only peoples that having 50% attendent have right to choose as committees..

then....finally the result is out...

4 new faces joined in...
jensen,chang en,kyle and nesh...
and FES worker=Ee Ling pray for the new committees

together every m'bers pray for us..
committees in the circle ...


receiving the blessing from GOd...
be serving God honor heart...
use Us Lord...


then the new committees.....
together we will be the best...
be the Light and the Salt ...
be UNITED!!!!


the old committees....
Thanks boon wee and michelle...
both them having another new ministry to serve
May God bless them...



and here's the brand new committees....
LOVE.....
is our main purpose together>>>



fellowship after AGM...
Thanks MrK for the supper....
God bless you MrK...
having great time with old and new committees...


and the next night....
new committees 1st meeting...



Eric having great sharing before internal election....
explaining...the CG in our CF....ha...
Eric...nice pic huh...



and let me intro the new face in CF committees...
here is JEN SEN...
last year CF camp famous actor on talent night...


NESH....
our CF 100% attendance m'ber....



and...Chang En....
super active young boy...making lot of noise....
good leader in future....
what else?....my co-leader...



and then....our beautiful guy....Kyle...
ha...Bass player...
music fans...like music ...active...
creative mind...funny face!!!cute....



and....finally ....
our chairman is Eric
and me>>>??Vice chairman....
haha...i always mention like this way....
voice chairman!!!ha!!
cause i'm the one always making noise...
the Lioness....
haha...at last we having a long long planning...
hope that every1 can really done up well on each of position...
God bless all of us!!!

60 earth hour

ha....experienced a brand new day on this weekend..
experienced night without light....
that day...830-930pm....in church...
together with my church youth...
great night...
turn off all light...
only cross light is on...
and ther pic...is my church cross...
ha...remained me...GOd is just so great!!
but...we as human...didn't take good care for the earth
guys...love our earth ya!!

YOU told me this....

passed days...have been long...
wanna to share out...but...don't know where to start...
until the day...group of friends wanna meet me up!!
finally i pour out everything...
felt great after that...em...ha!!
but through all that...God told me many things
1. Love
2. United
3. Listen
4. Build relationship
*5. My life given by Him
spiritual life exaction before this...
but God really amazing...He told me everything step by step...
and this weekend be a really great days....
God told me many lesson in other peoples experience...
listen to many wonderful testimony...
all these help me up lot...
God Thanks....
have been discourage before this...
But...by God grace...again...i stand up!!
and the song " we will stand"
against my heart to be bring christian together to serve!!
the most encouraging things is when i see His amazing work on others!
God really use us in many different potion ...
and Lord...i am here for You...
and Jesus told me this: "love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you for if you love only those who love you.."--- what reward is there in that?

and God said:
come to Him... though our gift is small...our heart is broken... our lives is broken
but He promise He will take them all....and carry us in His arm...
Lord...Thanks for the wonderful words....
difficulty is to make us getting nearer to You....
and Lord...help me as i can be more attach to You...

Love You Lord...
help me to live ...to glorify Your name...

lastly....miss my parents so much!!!
papa ...mama...take good good care ya!!!
i love you all so much!!

Gastirc....

stress will really kill up a person...
ye...it really serious....
ha...maybe i didn't pay more attention!!
so...it started to be negotiate with me...
whether how many food to take....
sometime feel don't want to eat....
sometime feel damn hungry....
so i can say....my stomach ....weird!!
it just change anytime it wants...
bad....and i think i really need to pay concern...
need to take care care about my body...
ha!!ya...i need to..and i must!!!
well....suffered from the pained long....
God...that the only pray ....
please heal me ...the fully healthiness...

few years back....
but a great memory will give us feel to go back...
and when i saw this...
touched!!!words from a old friend:
回想当初总是留下淡淡的遗憾，不晓得为什么总觉得错过了一些事情…
很多事情虽然简单，但却如此的深刻。残忍地问一句，以前情人节送你的娃娃还留着吗？
还有那个项链，什么样的吊坠我还记得呢，因为是自己亲手去选的，呵呵…
或许它们已经不在了，或被遗弃在角落，但在我脑海还残留着当时的画面，这样就好了
ouch!!!actually don't know how to reply this message!!
haiz...even all the question i know the answer...
well...don't know how...

is my heart hear??

been long ...
don't know what...when...how...
it's happen... heart feel NOTHING??Mad??
well...really can't read the words in my heart...
whether it's too much of language in it?
or there too much of things inside?or??
em...well...today will feel this bad feeling..
don't know what i want...no direction sudden..
even i know my way leading my God...
but there's a very weird feeling today...
is it too much of things to consider?
family,studies,CG,CF,friends,final exam??
the most flowing up problem i guess...??
yesterday received lots of email...
after reading all these message...stuck!!
em...sometime i was just thinking...
what is the purpose a christian in society?school?church?
em...do every of the christian know about the main?
i am not very sure...maybe sometime i wasn't a good leader...
i mess up??or what??well...the proper way to lead!
really hope there will have someone to guide us.
just read a passage from a paper...spiritual...
well..Lord...felt sorry...i regret that i don't do well
in my spiritual..i know that is important...
i loss....am i??but i know God is in front of me!
em...i know the knowledge...the true..the way..
but why still i feel lost sometime?
am my spiritual life too weak?
until this days all my emotion just carrying out?
i can't control??what happen to me??
am i too stress...or???burden??or...missing??
yes i guess so...so where in a deep jungle..ya
i can see the light...but i still stuck at the same place...
em...sound very sad huh...well...
is ok...always i will recovering my problem...
either write it out...sleep..eat...shout in house...
will be fine...Thanks God about that too...
so...every time.. bad emotional won't stay long!
don't worry my friend if you are reading this message
it's a arranging EQ in my life...
just talk to my heart through words...
well...feel some time...
friend...what that means so?
is that you are not there...you been forgotten?
well...i feel that too...
so..why said...human a not perfect...
that is the reason...caring..loving..
is a hard lesson to learn...and we must learn
how do we need to love people that is weird?
how??.....is hard right?but...we need too...
cause they are God's creation too...
God love them more than we are...
the day before...contact up a brother...
peoples that lost contact for few years..
very happy to heard from him again...
well..can feel the different!!!
that time we meet...i was 15...
and now i was 22...long...long...long!!
maybe i became more mature...yes i do!!
haha!!more pretty!!yes i am!!!haha!!
but will feel there is a little gab...
em...don't know...
am i facing communication problem?
am i????
and maybe i will ask this....
who am i???
haha....don't worry i know who am i!!!
just miss peoples around....just want to feel..
fellowship??em....well...ye...
hope i can meet back all old friends...
no regret in life anymore shirley...
make your Uni life interest...
shine for Christ!!!
oh...ye...is easy to write...
but..not easy to acting out...
yes...HARD!!!!
maybe i'm too noisy...
maybe i need to lock myself inside my room?
well...maybe i need to disappear??
which one to choose?
er...will feel a different shirley ya??
when you read this post...
am shirley such a downward sloping girl?
so down...so down???haha!!!
well...well...well...
is time to wash up the mess!!!
cleaning time!!!!
pray...bible study...bath!!
em...all best shirley i love you!!!haha!!