BIG FISH

i love this movie --- BIG FISH

today end my class early
extra 30min for rest...instead of 3 hours break!!
yahoo.....that why....do something special
try to watch the movie i had save in my laptop
then...delete all the movie ...
why???cause need to start study anyway!!
so...is also time to clear up all my document ...
pictures...movies...etc...

and this movie = BIG FISH
heard about this from my housemate=Danny!!
he said is nice...1st time i watched!!!
well...bored!!! that is the 1st impression !!
anyway...today i try to watch the whole story!!!
Danny is right!! this movie is very nice!!!
highly recommended to all of you!!!
as what Danny always said :
" hey you like to skip to watch movie!!
that's why you can't enjoy the story!! "
ya...quite agree with him...
anyway...i still follow my style!!!
anyway..like to see is't the story can attract me!
however i really like this movie!!
it showed a very good morality to me!!
how you love your parents!!!
how well do you know about them!!

personally i love this 2 posters very much!!!
especially the words : BIG FISH
creative enough!!
and also the 2nd poster bottom...
is the same movie!!!
but different design!!!
the 2nd poster....i like the flowers...
cause it is in YELLOW!!!haha!!!

i like the character in this movie!!!
his brave, love, friendship toward peoples around him!!
new lesson of the day : love peoples around you!!
fight for everything that you want know!!
don't ever WAIT for change....
cause the change won't WAIT for you!!!
hold on every second that you had now!!!
love your life...enjoy your life...

lastly...
personally i felt very touched with this story!!
i think i need to have some CHANGE in life!!!
do some adjustment in my life!!!
try to be some crazy...special in life!!!
fully utilize my life time!!!
life is FUN!!!

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next.....
+ waiting this movie : transformers 2+
hope i can get DVD of this movie....
em...no change to go cinema!!!
Sad!!! is to far to another town to watch!!
however i think i can download??
eee....then will be not nice ....
hope july it still on cinema!!
then i can watch when i go home!!!
yahoo....

is New

got to know lot of new things today
added in all new feature in my blog...
Happy!!! excited!!!surprised!!
now discovering any new background page that suite to me!!
realize....i like Art a lot!!!!
i am the chili Art girl!!! yahoo....
i want McD....i want BIG Apple donuts

coming up ....
welcoming party at Grand hotel
CF sport day
CF 1st meeting!!!
campus

Everything

yesterday ....today....
blur blur???
hyperactive???
sleepy??
haha.....all in!!!! = chiligirl!!!!
well.....had discovered new things....
bad and good!!!!ALL.....but what i can say is....
i love all these....problems and challenges....
sound crazy huh.....soon having my class....
yet...having finish my tutorial questions....
haiz...anyway....yesterday!!!

what i had get???well...many...
read nuffnang blogger blog....i like some of their blog!!!
get to know the big news!!!!--
=ASIA PACIFIC YOUTH ALIVE CONFERENCE 09'=

i can attend my church children camp!!!
yahoo!!!cause my exam having on thursday!!QQ

get to register as nuffnang m'bers....

get to chat with old friend in s'pore!!!
happy to chat with her that afternoon...
share lot....

received special invited in facebook!!!
goodness...friend that 5 years did't contact at all!!!
view his facebook profile.....
OMG....he married!!!!
big SHOCK!!!!

having great lunch at Grand hotel!!!!

oh!!!!....THEN....take KINTA bus to campus again!!
for CF SPORT DAY!!!!cool.....
KINTA bus special for me....only me and another little boy in the bus!!
damn WEIRD!!!!
anyway...

got wet during the sport day!!!!

at night......
attend welcoming party at Grand hotel again!!!
nice programs....
hope next time we have our own CF meeting there...
waiting.....

today .....
realize my library books.....EXPIRED!!!
o....need to pay fines later in campus....SWT!!!

got to know...
shui this week will go back seremban...
haiz...can't go back....
cause i'm the pianist this sunday in kampar church...
haiz....

can't meet up my tutor...
cause she not FREE....

anyway...hope can get new best news in school later...
gambateh

happy birthday mum

happy birthday Mum
even you can't read this message
but just want to say:
Mummy i love you!!!!
and
Thanks for being my great Mum

Realize

last weekend went back to Seremban
Thank God that i have a wonderful time
learn lot of lesson during the journey back
from my sister...the important i need to know
thanks to all friends around the world
message that you all sent to me...
guys...i received all the cares and worried!!
Thanks for the encouragement!!
Thanks... i realize... I'm so Weak??
haha...LOL...anyway...need to stop this!!!
stop being so WEAK!!! I need to stand up and continue
I know is not easy but i believe together with friends
support from everywhere and from God strength
I can do it!!! Yeah!!!

AGAIN!!!! Thanks friends that care for me!!
guys i knew that you all worried about me!!
but...need to let you know!! I"M fine....
get back to LIONESS life!!!
strong!!!!LOL
Thanks for the pray , advice , support , care , and etc
love you all so so much!!!
Thanks to friends that reading my post....
haha...guess sometime will scare you all...
with the curious words...
anyway... I'm fine now!!
getting fine fine....Recovering 80%

Thanks comments from :
wendy, alexson, kara ,kah yee ,jonathan

wendy: will try to get quietness when i stress!!
thanks for the pray...same to you!!

alexson: yup!!will always remember what i share
will apply in my life and be stronger to lead you guys!!

kara: thanks for being with me along this journey!
love you so so much!!!gambateh too!!

kah yee: Thanks for the support and comfirmation!!
yup...will come to you when i need couragement!

jonathan: quite supprised when i saw your msg!!
Thanks...i like the story!!kind of encourage
and great remainder!!
yup...give up all to God!!!Amen!!!

Thanks talk from :
Dorcas, Mr.K , Ee lin , man foo

Ee lin: thanks for all the great words and sushi!!!
have been realize that i got lots of great things in me!
will keep on and improve to be better...
will miss you in future...we are best friend!!

man foo: thanks for the pray , support and caring!!!
thanks for everything!!!

Thanks pray from :
everyone!!!

special thanks to my Mummy!!
mum...thank for the great encouragement
trust and believe on me!!
i love you very very much!!!
Thanks...for everything....
i will do my best!!!

lastly...
Thanks God...
bringing so many peoples talk to me!!
i realize that i am not so bad...
i still got something special that other don't have
and ...i will continue this difficulty journey!!
continue until the end!!!

Dark emotion

don't know why...when it happen
today...very sudden getting very down mode!!
just like i want to SHUT DOWN myself...
i have no idea where this feeling came from
just like the above picture
just realize this kind of feeling is very bad
i really hope i can write something HAPPY
but i can't!!! just stayed in front of my laptop
more than 30min ...
trying to calm down my bad emotional
but...finally i guess i did't handle it perfect!!
anyway...figure out that...it is from my HEART
came from the stress faced by me during the week
i try hard to forget and MOVE on...
but that bad feeling still in me...
why?? i really can't explain
trying very hard to do exercise
thinking it will make myself tired and sleep well
anyway...sometime it not working
i feel my mind just mess up!!!
very messy ....very very....
feel want to VOMIT....
eee....feel so bad...very bad....
er...can't explain deeply why...
cause i have no idea why??
curious things happen ...my phone not functioning
i have LOST i guess...
want to just cry out loud...
but i really don't know how to...
i have NO ideasssssssssss.....
ate my favorite cookies,coco,fruit juice,lollipop...
but all these not helping up at all...
conclusion....i am sad...
why???....i not sure...
just feel wanna burn out ...
hope i will get fine after my jogging...
all the tear can just come out!!
out to westlake...see the natural trees and lake
hope the quiet over there
i can recover
Lord...talk to me!!!

wonderful life

realize when we don't think of the bad things
your life will be more interesting
that's why don't ever think in negative way
always in positive way... then life will be wonderful
LOL

last night CF 1st bible study this semester
very happy to meet up all the new members
especially all my group members

message to my Jim Elliot members:
all new faces...came from different places
having different habit and ideas
Thanks God bring us together...
hope guys....during years study over here
hope you all really enjoy life as student!!!
and...try to serve God during student life too!!
hope to see you guys every CF meeting!!
last night we had discuss about the topic:
"when Jesus became man"
i believe most of you (the new believer)
will have some question on this
well...what i want to tell you guys is...
God love us very much!!!
that's why you get to know Jesus through your friend
and i very happy last night you guys brave to share
and share about the life you becoming a christian
and i believe it is Hard for you...
when parents are not christian
and you need to be as strong others else
you will face more challenges in life than others
but what i want to tell you all is
God will always be with you...
will always uphold all of you in my pray
hope life over in campus
you guys have free change to go church
and you guys can really grow in God's words
grow in spiritual life too
need help just drop me an email
sms,call,msn...always welcome!!!

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hope my new semester
i can really make things different
make my own life special
hope this semester
GOD will lead my life
same goes to my family
hope they all in peace and healthy
love them all so much!!!
hope my parents will not feel lonely
when i am not around with them!!
hope my future....
really bless by God
walk in the light in Christ!!

make things special

i really love green earth ...
love the creation of God....i like Green!!!!
see how wonderful all the natural is....
please love the Earth~~~

well>>>>>
it will be good if one day i become a writer??
haha...dreaming??!!!well....i am!!!LOL
just watched the movie called "how to lose friend?"
1st day came back Kampar until today....
lot of things happen....
friends ,weather ,problem....problem....problem...
i realize i really need to face the reality
even it is terrible ,horrible and scarcely
but what i had realize from all that....
i have learn the big lesson... LOVE + FORGIVE

someone ask me this Question
how you face those who hurt you??
well...is a interesting question!!!
cause sometime we don't even think of this...
how we face those peoples that hurt you so deep before?
well...is not easy to say that we can forgive them FAST!!
but...i thanks God that...i have clear mind...
i know what am i doing...and what should i do!!!
face them as normal...cause we still need to continue our LIFE
anyway...passed just let it pass...
mission and vision is important now!!!
well....mine????haha....
of course can get well on this semester!!!
i wanna graduate la....
fast fast fast....
LOL

had suffered Gastric this whole 2 weeks!!!
everyday...becoming FAT!!!cause drink lot of MILO!!
the main reason!!!ate too much chili???
i guess so....lol...
aiya...chili part of my life....swt!!
anyway need to stop it until i recover...
no coffee ,no chili ,no spicy!!!!!
arrrgh....i hate that!!!!
like what i always said : "no chili ,no life "
wohaha.....
well...life will be fun if we don't think of the sadness
so my friends...my advice is...move forward in life!!
don't look at the back ok??

well...yesterday promise my classmate-Jason to donate blood!!
finally i failed my mission...
main reason....SCARE!!!!
well....i will try again next time i promise friend!!!
sorry ya!!!i think you gonna kill me tomorrow in class!!!
ops.....i ready for that!!!

anyway....thanks God for everything
1st....i felt comfortable in the place i am now!!!
the place of worship....fellowship and gathering!!
Thanks God.... i had wonderful and cute housemates
all of them is Fun and friendly
i love them so much!!!LOL
Thanks God i never face housemates conflict!!!
well...sometime of course will have some different opinion
well...i think we can improve it right ???
of course we can....cause we are human...
we are flexible!!!!

Shout out ....
this action sometime really help up lot!!!
well...guys if feel sad...just SHOUT OUT LOUD!!!

well...that is what i can say.....
love my life....cause i still alive!!!
well...sadness and anger...
is time to throw you all away in my life!!
i only want joy in my life ya!!!
LOL

message to wendy:
well...hope you can really understand
and know what you actually choose
hope you will find peace in your environment!!
GOd bless you in life!!!
hope my advice can really help you up!!

message to km:
hi...well..maybe can't really understand your decision
well...anyway...just want to let you know
your are one of my friend
sorry for any action that i had hurt you before!!
but just to tell you...is not personally attack!!
but i really care on WORK!!!
so hope in future we still keep in touch!!
wherever you go...remember you have a friend here
the passed let it pass...
and i promise i will be STRONG!!
thanks for the support!!!


message to friends of form 6:
very excited gonna meet you all up soon on DEC!!!
hope when i meet you all....
you all will remember me!!!
very excited with the meet soon!!!
miss you all much!!!

message to myself:
hi deep in my heart!!!
thanks God when you face problem
there is always friends beside you
realize the QUALITY of friends when problem occur!!
hope you can be royalty to all your friends
even they hurt you before
but in bible...
God want us to love everyone
and that is the lesson you need to learn
make things special
make your life more interesting on this semester
cheer in life always
let your joy bring happiness to peoples around you!
remember one things
CHANGE!!!!
make change to improve in life!!!
make change to let peoples know you have change!!
make change so prepare for future!!!
make change to glorify God's name ya!!
at last....
bring LOVE in life always
CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE....

who is the real friend?

always heard peoples talk about their class room conflict
I've never have special feeling on that....
just think...wow...why there will have such person appear??
until today i realize this type of human are always around us
never feel so bad connecting to peoples...
never been hurt by peoples before
maybe because of that...i can't accept what is happening in front of me
anyway...Friend!!! what this actually mean of??
always i think of...Friend is the person who help you up when u in need
Friend will be your great adviser to solute problem
yet today....i see there is a opposite meaning of what so call "friend"of us
can never think of us!!!but think of their self...
is this call friend? i have no idea why a person can change just...
so fast??? previously we are best friend...the next second we are...
enemy???just like we don't know each others....
i have a high disappointed to all of you...
i have never things one day i will face this kind of situation...
i never think of.....never...but it reality...i need to accept
peoples really different...totally different....
but i still thank God that i still have number of friends care of me
i miss my secondary life....i miss all my form 6 friends....

especially MIN HUI....thanks baby....
thanks for the supportive words and care...
i know you always care of me...same goes to me!!!
very excited for our form 6 gathering soon on DEC...
have been 3 years i haven meet you all...
time together...fight...i remember you always think of me!!
you never scold me...never..i just remember...
you will always talk well to me...explain to me....
and advice me...really glad that have friend like you!!
you are my best friend...hope your life over in s'pore will be fine!!
hope one day can come over to visit you!!take good care friend!!!

well....i think..just like my dear dear kah yee said...
don't ever border how others treat us...
just do our part!!!yup...i will try best to do ...
hope both us can do well...even this time ...
only you ,me and jason...
but i believe 3 of us still can do well...
because we are the best!!ya!!haha...
this time we can show how powerful we are!!!YEA!!!!
don't look at peoples who hurt us....
because one day they will realize HURT that made on us!!
no need to mention who well we are....
because human are not perfect at all...

what i believe in Christ....we then be perfect!!
because we have Jesus in my life!!!!
hope after this post...i can cover fast...
bible told us...don't keep the anger in us until night!!
yup...next day is the NEW DAY!!!
new for me !!! my 1st sunday again in kampar
hope life over here can get better....
hot....well...time too get sweating....

at last...bless all my friends...
hope you guys can find your position in life
good luck friends!!!

extra message to my dear dear kah yee...
happy belated birthday!!!
haha..actually decide to write to you on Friday
but finally fail my plan....
hope you don't mind my late wishes ya...
thanks for being as a great friend in my life...
very happy that day when you told me you will try to come church
even it is the promise you make with raymond..
but i pray that one day you really find out the Christ!
i believe it will be bit hard...but don't worry
i will be with you...feel free to ask me anything about christian!!!
i will try my best to help you!!
last...even this time we have big problem forming our assignment group
but i believe we can still go on to do even more better right??
we do everything for our self...not for others...
friendship forever dear!!!!cheer in life too....
love all my friends on earth...
either i hurt you before or you hurt me...
i forgive you all today...
i love you all much!!!good luck

ready?

(pic taken by my best fren,Jayz in cameron)

3rd day in kampar
oh woke up at 845am...
er....too late!!!
but don nothing just blogging here!!
anyway...3 days in kampar...
doing nothing...am i???ye...Maybe!!!
what i can conclude???
weather is HOT...many new students!!
hostel area crowded!!!many bicycles!!!
anyway.... already entered 3 classes di...
still enjoyed the lecture class....
Lecturer is Fun...so still happy with the subjects!!
campus Bus....arrgghh....want to complain!!!!
BAD SERVICE!!!wait 40min no bus!!
yet the driver not border us!!
sleep in the BUS!!!oh my....how dare he do that!!
anyway...just train my patience....Good too!!!ha!!
until today Kampar never feel cold!!!NEVER!!!
is just HOT 24 hours....all my skin gonna get Burn!!!
can have BBQ in my hostel di!!!!
my friend suggest ...stand in front of ur Fridge!!
hello...waste the Electric la....LOL
anyway...hope the weather can get better....
so...Peoples don't pollute our EARTH again ya!!
Love the EARTH!!!
this few days busy with CF apple tart sale...
Fund raising for coming CF combine camp!!!
hope we can earn as many as we can!!!
but thank God...everyday we sold out all the tart~~
HAPPY~~
haiz....hope can capture all this memory...
but my dear sista lent my camera....
SAD~~
anyway hope can get back my camera soon...
so that i can capture all nice pics to share here!!
haha!!!well...feel good when i type here....
sometime don't like to talk...
so wording ....to share how i feel...
em....express feeling....haha!!!

felt me myself very Bad...
always make my family members disappointed!!!
hope i can make them proud one day!!
i believe i can!!!
this few days talk less in class...
don't know why...
there is a gab between me and others...
yes...big gab i guess!!!ya!!!
i'm the monster??LOL
maybe i'm too busy...swt!!
anyway...forget about that!!!

yesterday...
everyone discussing who to join with whose assignment group
our group...haiz..need 2 more peoples!!!
Hard to choose!!some approach them self to us!!
but problem is...they don't even do work!!!
everyone know that!!!haiz....scare...
hope we can at least get one person again!!!
cause we like to score high marks!!!
hope this time too!!!haha!!!
anyway....hope this politic in class can end fast!!!
scare when they all discuss about this issue!!!
anyway...just hope someone who join us
can really do work!!!okok??

hope the following days...
weather will get better
can understand what the lecturer teach
can got all information about this sem
relationship with God ...improve!!
this sem must be better than last time
move forward!!don't look at the past!!!
Gambateh!!
i'm ready for everything....
hope i can handle every challenges!!!
go go go ....