Hey, Soul Sister

hey friends!!!! hehe....me again!!!
just came back from retreat meeting...
somehow worked out good by grace of God!!!
and ya...going back sweet home tomorrow....
sleepy but still need make all things done...
gambateh!!! Go go go....

here's the cool one to share with you all again!!!
love their music combine as well their voice....
i really love chinese la.....hahah....talented huh!!!
of course including me as well!!! =)

cool~~ well check out this group peoples singing here....
you gonna love it!!!

B.O.B ft. Bruno-Nothin On You & Airplanes (Mashup & Cover by CLARA and J...

This two peoples are really awesome!!!
like that guy....crazy he can played so many instrument...
ah....i should go and learn Violin lah....
really like violin!!! someone please teach me!!! =)
la...but i love this song that played by them!!
check out the Jason and Clara!!!
you will definitely love it!!!
Girls you will like that guy then after this!!LOL
but seriously is great!!! you should watch this out!!!

FlipPing bAcK LiFe boOk

sleepy chiligirl is taiping in front the keyboard now...

was thinking.....(even brain is not really functioning)..lol

why is it life can be so complicated?

even we knew that there is the purpose...

there is the reasons....sometime...

or even there is the challenges for us...

but...I'm kind tired with all this...well i means sometime...

know what??

i was thinking what if i can escape from all this...

and run to a place that no one knows me...

i guess maybe that will be better??

perhaps you been ignore by peoples that know you?
oh that will be even hurt huh!!! agree?
yeh...that is what human always can't accept...

peoples scare to be ignore...

scare to be alone...

scare to be leaved out...that's human scare most right!

i guess even you will scare of facing this incident right?

then...we will fall into bad emotional....easily....

am i right??? perhaps~

i knew how it feel like....cause i experienced before...

sometime...i really hope that...

i can lives in a place...

full with trees...flowers....

beach ....rivers...perhaps big green field with cooling air...

instead of all buildings...cars...polluted air...

maybe...instead of this....i can just be in heaven ???

but....i need to die 1st then...
em...well well....is not an good ideas for now...
at least i need to know who is bf before i die......

LOL...alright....i guess some of my friends reading this.....
will start thinking what is in Shirley's mind again now...

well well...sometime words just to express...

i always tell my buddies....

peoples who always looks good....

doesn't means that they are really good...
they can just pretending they are good....
well instead they are not good at all....

cause...their problem is deep in heart....

which you will never know...never see...
pay more attention to the words of them..
their action....then you will realize....
heheh....if you wanna track mine?
oh.....then is not easy....i good in hiding!!!
LOL... =D alright just joke...

just like you will never expect what will happen...

to a person that you met everyday...

will just gave kind of different attitude to you...

the next day when you see them...

ya....I'm strongly agree with this point....

........
well yeh i just watched some movies that inspire me..
and i felt that i'm so lucky for what am i now...
for who am i now....
even peoples might not know what i need...
what is in my head...
but i do know that God know ....
even sometime i felt that God don't really know...
well yeh...that is human naturalist huh!!

hhmmm....well i guess whenever is it...
i believe that God will say:
"hey yo I am at your back!!!"
yup..that is it!!! =)
simple answer telling everything....
been protected....
..................................
everyone have their own dirt...
haven their own story...
but if...we don't have all the problem or difficulty...
do you think is good? think about...
yeh...probably...sometime...
and ya...missing my mum...
i do believe that she missed me too...
you know what....
this few days...i just hide inside my room....
watching dramas....movies...
i don't really work out something....
yeh...i knew that is bad...
.but if something just border me....
i guess this will happen....
anyway...i knew that i should not do this...
yeh...wasting time....
but i'm glad that i got some message through story...
seriously....investigate my life right....
checking....flipping back my life...
what is in the past....
am i doing good? or have i??
yup....no doubt that even we say this....
we have the answer deep in heart....
have you admit it or not??
that is the question....
yeh...is time to think about...
relax and think....
plan and organize life now....
God bless....

Flipping her life book...

looking for the answer

Starting Now I love You

well is a great sunday....and i'm the translator and pianist in church...
ah....felt that i doing badly in the sermon translation....sad~
but...anyway....moment on my FB....Thanks to my friend...
she share with me the song that i look for....
well as most my friends know that...i love Korea...
as well...i hope i'm a korean too!!! haha....weird huh!!!
ya...even they said i look alike korean!!! do you think so?
haha....anyhow...share the great song today with you...
song that i love....recently watching the new korea drama:
is a great story ...romantic and touch...
ya....i love the story...the actors....the story character....
yeh...i love the guy -seung gi!!! since after i watched his another
drama last year....yeh...he is really cute~~ love him!!!
and ya...this song that i'm sharing today...sang by him...
yup...he is a singer as well....his voice is really nice....
and this song...you gonna love it!!!!
HIghly recommend by me....Chili girl!!!!
check it out!!! LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!

weather changing

 

planned to take nap...

la...at last sitting in front of my laptop...

gosh...I've no idea what happen to me...

i guess probably my brain has nothing inside...
but i can feel headache.... =(

2 papers has passed....2 more to come....

facing problem this time...always in section A ....
the compulsory section which i can't skip...

both of that papers now.....sad~
don't want to talk about that either....

anyway...i guess i've not put in enough effort...
punishment.... huh!!!

even i'm confident when i'm home...
look at what i've read....la....

but during the time i saw the paper...

stone....i guess probably i flipping my brain memory...

i can't even find a correct sentences to fix in my questions...

la...sad~ ye...probably in my life....

the things that i hate the most would be Exam!!

=(  la..anyway...i hope everything will be fine

2 more to come...

i should focus on another two....

hope the Miracle....and maybe those silly answer...
could just turning to the correct answer....

la...seeing baby is the best things make me happy...
la...i'm kind imagine when my sista have baby...
i will definitely love the baby very very much...
ah....as well this baby.....
baby from my church in PJ...
cute huh....
yeh...baby make me forget those sad things...
remove the sad one...keep moving you LIoness....
Go girl!!!! chill everytime....
I love babysssss.....
sos....sista can u please have baby fast??
LOL

out of her mood~~
but hope to have nephew

Church Retreat 2010

well this is the 2nd time i involve in the project...
em...my 2nd time attending the church camp....
One of the most important thing to do this year.......
yup....the church camp Opening ceremony....
yeh....thing that i love to do....
Dance~
yeh...even i am not professional enough....
and my sista said: "why your dance step look the same?"
LOL.....
but i love to Dance~
well.....sometime ....proud of myself..... =)
cause i able to Dance!!!
so....what to do?? =) (ss'')
use it for God!!!! yeh....
of course....if i have chance to attend class...
or someone can teach me....
that will be AWESOME!!!! =)
anyhow....this year church camp...
seriously....opening ceremony is BRAVO!!!
WE DID GREAT JOB!!!!
better than previous....!!!
of course if i have chance to join the coming one...
ah....will do it better than this year as well!!!

while i am practicing with my dancers....
the rest of them ....busy to get ready for the balloons....
just alright....cause i scare balloons....
better go for my Dance practice....LOL

lala...here's the moment we bring up the balloons to the sky!!!
yeah!!!! but it take more than one hour to success this project...
as you can see...the balloons keep dropping out .....

lala...here is the hall that we used for the camp this year....
Damai Laut hotel....
i love the lights here.....

weeehhhh......before the service started.....
everyone of us get ready for the opening ceremony....
this year i forgot to take a pic of mine with my face paint...
forgot forgot!!!! =(

here you go....
the opening ceremony start!!!!

hahah....i love my dance step....
even is not professional enough yet....
but i believe i will improve in future!!!
learn learn learn~

see....in few seconds.....
our hard work fall on the floor!!!
hahaha...but i love it!!!
Colorful !!!

after the night session.....
there lots of performance that night....
while i didn't take much pics...
grab all pics from others....
here is the Crew of Mega CF!!!
we the energetic peoples work together for God!!
well well....some of them said...
this is only the 1st night.....
but as you can see.....
seem like is already the last day!!!
Everyone of us....crazy to take group pics....
hahah....but is true that we are EXCITED!!!
cause everyone enjoyed in the Opening ceremony that we perform!!!
So happy~~ =)

lala....here is the peoples.....
this year....more new members is in the group.....
seem like i getting older in the group!!!

and here we are....
the Opening ceremony Dancers!!!!
our program director of the church camp
Uncle Han Yun....
he is trying to learn our pose!!!
hahaha....

yeah!!!! here's all of the Mega CF members who attend the camp!!
with Pastors and the church leaders.....
waiting for the 2012 church retreat camp again!!!

**Now Everyone can Serve!!!**

lala....here is the 2nd day.....
the morning session before Pastor sermon....
we still energetic....
cause we are YOUNG!!!

yup.....we went for our own group for the workshop session...
and campus students have the great workshop incharge by ...
Brother En chi!!! yeah....learn lots.....
FULLY ENGAGEMENT!!!

our Fitness Trainer.....
Brother Ray....(i hope is correct!!)....lol
yeah....this Ball is really cool~
will plan to buy one when i work!!!
hehe....can slim down neh!!! LOL

yup...our speaker....Brother En chi!!

the night session workshop!!!
yup....4 session ....we learned lots...
Thanks for the effort from Brother En chi!!

yosh...ended our 2nd night.....
with my sweeties of my dance crew....

ya...and my crazy brother....
the person that always disturb others...
having BIG FIGHT with him after the workshop!!!
haha.....see we are the Kung Fu peoples!!

yeh...since is the last night....
yup....most of us....
don't feel to sleep....
so we went to the beach.....
everyone sitting there and chat.....
sing....enjoy the wind....

and me....ouch i have the long leg in this pic!!....
but i enjoyed in the environment here....
cool~

the last day....
Is the Sunday!!! =)
yeah!!!.......

yup!!! i enjoyed this year camp...
even thought i no longer see all my old friends...
which they went to different places...
but is cool to met up new members this year....
even thought i walked alone most of the time this year...
but i enjoyed the beach wind....
at least i no need to talk....
which i love to!!!!
=) Silent is Gold

yup.....i miss Sitiawan Food....
you know what....
i ate all the nice food in Sitiawan the whole afternoon....
after the closing ceremony.....
after our lunch.....
all of us....went and look for the best food in Sitiawan....
ah....i can't imagine that how much i have eaten....
gosh....yesterday i just got to know that....
I HAVE GAIN 2 KG!!!! Fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh my.....i should control my diet for the coming days...
imagine i hang 2 chicken on my shoulder now...
yup.....anyway.... I still enjoyed...
eat food that i miss for so long!!!!
**photos credit to Joshua**

working on....

Hillsong Final concert,IPoh

lala.....
back in action this time....
oh...lala...late post on my final hillsong concert...
here you are....here's the pretties gang i met....

yeah...after one hour...finally we enter the hall...
The peoples are excited for the concert....

well...i guess the best is.....

i can experienced the great music....

worship~

here you go...
the latest album from Hillsong

i love the light effect...
really really!!!!

Pastor Lee.....
giving the sermon on the offering!!!

the worship team members are great....
fulled of energy !!

Pastor Josh....
ye...very glad that his sharing inspire me...

la...met him during the concert....
friend that i didn't meet up for long....

la...the final sermon from Pastor Lee....
what he mentioned had reminded me lots of things

after the concert.....
nothing to do....
lol...
while waiting Felic n Dave outside the hall....
is the photo section....

lala....me and Pastor Josh

lala...met another friend that longtime didn't meet too...
the Thomas boy!!!!
very glad that he has found a great place to serve....

lala...and my lovely classmate....
the crazy girl-waiyue....

ya...here's the volunteers of the concert....

big crew huh...

pastor priscilla....
a person i got to know when i register for the workshop...

lala....before we went home....
drop by Melody house...
sent her my present!!!!
wrist band that i love....

then....we went for our late supper....

almost 1am i guess...

Drink is the most important for us....
lack of water ....
lol

lala...met up my brother....Jerome...
we the pastor's kids!!!
hahaha....

lala.....cheer!!!!
Glad that the concert has successfully accomplish!!!

next what we do???
check out next.....
the Chipmunk kena SHOCK!!!

not feeling well

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either is your life journey or mine...

we will never know how long will it take for us to reach the next station...

and who will we meet at the next station...

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suddenly...i felt that...i'm so bad....

i'm so useless....

i'm nothing....

i keep receiving blessing from others...

i keep blaming and complains...

i never been appreciate with what i have last time...

i will be calculative with how much you have loves me...

i will get angry when you are not paying attention to me...

i will get mad in front of you...

but you know what....i love you ...

i still remember that day.....
when you read the newspaper upside down....
you don't know what am i talking about....
i still thought that you are fine....
but you are actually not!!!
i should suspect early right?
if not you won't be so serious today....
and now....even sometime....

you can't talked to me....you will got blur....
you can't recognize me....

do you know how i feel??
panic~ i don't know what should i do....

i'm totally out of mind....

i guess i will not accept the day when you really leave me....

i guess i will hardly to accept all this fact....

do you know that how much i love you?

every time if something happen to you....
i will think back of all those old time...
i miss the way you hug me....

the body that is bigger than me....

the way you carried me to my bed every time i slept in the car

i really miss you....i really do....your way of talking....

i admit that sometime i'm not patient to you...

i will get mad when you are not listen to me...

or you trying to make everything worse...

then i always think of this....

is it God wants me to learn something?

especially Patient?i told her before too....

but i asked God....am i still don't have that much yet?

i believe that you have suffered so much...
mentally...spiritually...especially physically .....

you have no ideas what are you doing.....

Doctor told me...you will slowly lost your memory...
you will lost control....and ya....i really hope that is it not true...

i guess one day if you can't recognize anyone of us....

i don't know what will happen to me...

....a person that have care for me for so long...

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i remember there is a post i wrote about you...

when i'm in PJ.....during the late evening....

i cried alone in the lab while i wrote that post...

today....when i heard that again you have been hurt...

and you can't recognize who are the peoples around you...

i can imagine how bad it is....cause i saw that before....

i knew that you love to talk to peoples....

that is the reason...whenever i am back...

i will bring you to shopping mall....

give you to observe peoples around...

i guess one part of my character is just similar like you...
but i really hope that i could be like you....
will not get angry .....cause you really have patient...
no matter what is going on....you will not fight with others...
that is what i saw along the way you solve problems...

seriously i miss the way you talk to me last time...

which i'v no longer heard it again for so long....so many years....

i'm trying very hard to remember the way you talk to me last time...

i'm trying to imagine what will you tell me if i do in any decision...

you know that i'm not clever enough....
and you always like to compare both of us...

you asked me to work hard....to be the best...

but i guess for my condition now.......
i have totally disappointed you right?

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sometime i really think that maybe if you die...

it will be better to you??to others??
maybe you will live more happily?? 

but when i think of another site....

i want you to see who is my bf....

i want you to attend my weeding....

i know that you really pain....

you suffered lots....

but i felt that i'm totally hopeless at this moment...

i can only cried in my room....

updated everything through sms....

other than that i can't do.....

i'm trying to be very cheerful to chill her up...

i hope that you will be alright!!!

sometime i need to scold you so that she will not scold you....

but i know that you does not like it....

i knew that both you have given up lots to me and her...

i really wish that i have my own financial power....

so that i can make the better arrangement for you...

you know....i have a plan in my mind...how to take care both you...
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i knew that i might need lots of patient....when i talk to you....
cause you will not agree with me every time ...

but i hope that i can really be the best in your eyes....

the other day i went back to the old house....

when the moment i heard her pray....

my tear dropped ....cause she mentioned about you...

her will is wanted us to be there....

she wants us to talk to....i can sense it.....

even she did not realize that....she actually repeating the same topic....

but i knew that she do love you!!!and us....
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and this make me felt guilty....

cause i have been bad of her few times....

because i wanted to protect another one...

i guess i really biases when i'm settle problems...

cause i will only protect one site...and hurt another site

suddenly felt that i'm actually very very bad....
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i have my own happiness and i didn't think of you....
i does not care about you when i'm good....

i should be with you more time...=(
more caring i believe you will be better....

just like how you take care of me last time....

i should be more patient....should not scare of those silly things...

i should be brave to face all this....

i should try the better way to communicate with you...

i should allow you to talk to others....

which i believe God really want me to do that...

now i'm thinking....if this happen to Jesus...

what will He do???

i really miss him....

don't know how was he right now

~Realize~

 well i agree that whenever i get angry...

whatever in my mind could be just wrong!!

i need time to calm down and think....

well i'm glad that i'v a best friend that reminded me something...

which i lack of something...

even lots questions been asked but is good...

it make me to think....which sometime i refuse to think...

cause i love to avoid from problems....

ya...i know that is not good...

so i guess because of things silly action...

when next time problem occur...

i could not handle it well....

i guess instead to train myself ....be more patient...

and be a good observant as well...be alert what is going on....

what is happening around me....what is the needs ....

which is the great timing to be....

what is Faith to you???

do you ever think about that??

well one of the man mentioned this:

"Faith is not what you believe ...but is how now you live!"

what Faith to me?

"Believing without doubt on what will happen!"

cause God will have His own timing on everything ....

and i should believe and keep the journey on...

instead don't stay at the same place...

struggling....and shouting....get angry...

which Anger will not help anything...

but bring disaster to peoples around...

discourage everyone...

this morning i'v a great time with God...

which sometime i lack of....

of being not concentrate whenever i'v my devotion...

there will have something disturb my mind...

but I'm glad that lately relationship between me and God...

has build back.... i can sense Him again...

i'm closer to Him... =) happy~

today i realize lots of things...

which God responded to my questions last night...

which He gave me confident to go forward...

no matter what .... Believe....

this morning suppose i'm looking for Psalm 94....

but i forgot which chapter....

and i reading Psalm 98 ...

which  "slap" me lots!!!

which make me awake of something!!!

the most verse that attract my attention

: "Let them sing before the Lord, for he comes to judge the earth.

He will judge the world in righteousness and the peoples will equity."

Psalm 98:9

sometime we will make mistake...

ya and i'm agree with this as well...

cause we are not prefect....

but in God we will be!!! =)

so instead i'm judging what others are doing....

i should live out my life that can be the example....

NO Judgment!! cause i have no right to do that!!

But GOD!!!!

i can't change anything by myself!!!

But GOD!!!!

i can't heal the hurt within me...

But GOD!!!!

so when you leave it up to Him....

question is...whether you committed enough?

But GOD promise is

: "I can do everything through him who gives me strength"

Philippians4:13 

we find contentment at the same place we will also find God!!

Time to look for Him if you too having struggle...

and i knew that my contentment was not based on my circumstances...

BUT my relationship with Christ!!!

No matter what you are facing today

through prayer you can receive the strength to be content!!

Pray!!! =)

live that God should be in me!!

get work on studies now