New

brand new page
brand new day
brand new semester
hope everything as new
i can start from the beginning
hope i can overcome thing is difficult
gambateh shirley
all New
start up new life too
cheer in Life
yeah!!!

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soon class start
i have no idea how i continue
Sad...
maybe i don't put more effort
maybe i give up too early
anyway...there is not the best reason to cover up
but i u know
i need to continue this journey
i can't make people who care of me disappointed
maybe no one can understand
i still need to be strong!!
can't imagine what will happen when the lesson start...
haiz...

haha

holidays now...
doing nothing...
wanna share...
but don't know what to share...
i think everyone forget me already....
are you all???

So You Think You Can Dance - Season 4

special hour

ha......
must feel curious why i mention "special"
basically...is special for me!!!
1st time....
came to Mid-valley together with my laptop...
the reason????purpose.....haha...
Online.....
walked an hour....searching where got Wi-Fi...
hehe....
finally when i saw donuts....
the Big apple donuts....
haha....my favorite....my 1st choice...
just think of to buy donuts...
and finally sat down to rest....
oh ....that is just so fantastic ....
here got Wi-Fi....
wow...Cool...finally i can online...without any worry....
with nice view in front my me....the donuts maker behind me...
haha...nice environment to online....
still have 2 more hours to online...happy!!!!
it would be a special experience....
walked an hour searching place to online...
until 4 hours to online at the same place...

sometime i was just thinking...
what is the means of "Friend"
sometime it really means to me....
sometime i feel the real name of the "Friend"
just ....Lost the opportunity...
always heard others said....
friends will not forget you....
will always stay with you....
Friends is the person most important in your life...
Friends is the one who hold you up...

for me....sometime i feel....
the words from certain peoples to me....

yo...Shirley miss you so much!!!
hei Shirley longtime no see how are you???
oh Shirley will remember you in my pray!!!
shirley........
haiz....only words....without action....
or....just tell out your secret to others...
oh my...."hei i really sad why will i call you that time!!"
and yet ...you just tell to others???
until another person ask....i just get to know!!
"do you really want to make this kind of JOKE??"
i really don't respect this kind of peoples....
i can say....there is no more secret to this kind of peoples...
i'm sad....but you still tell off to others....
do you ever think of how will i think???
do you ever stand on my foot and think of my side???
well.....that it just what i think.....
logically i know Friends still care about me...
the Real friends....
who really care about me when i was Sad...
who really care about me when i was Sick!!!
who is the one really stay beside me.....

don't know why....today....
even in a good environment...but...my mind still....
still...still....think of those sensitive topic...
but....still Thanks God for the friends that He provided to me!!
sometime seriously jealous my sister....
she got lot of loyal friends....
never forget his birthday...
never forget to care about her....

what i can say....
friends from primary to secondary....
who i really keep in touch???
i try very hard to contact....
but end up....with ...
"sorry!!i'm busy"....
"ops...in hometown!!you come and find me la!!"
or just NO reply ......
what a Sad!!!!Sad...Sad....
peoples holidays Full of entertainment...
Me???this holidays....Nothing!!!!
1st....just end up with my exam....
No mood!!!!but only one hope!!!
Lord....i want to Pass!!!
the simple wish!!!!
anyway....that have been a long long argue here...
i need to stop it!!!
STOP shirley.....
actually wanna to share my best friends visit....
finally i had typing out so much....
ok....but...i still have some friends that is
what we call in mandarin " Gen"
"yi chi" friends....
ha....
ok ....let go continue the story i stop in previous post...
the special friends visit!!!!

time to Break

going to 1 more hour
had been doing nothing this whole day...
just stayed in front of my laptop
watching movie
haha....
so bad i am...
anyway there have lot of things wanna to share....
will share when i am free....
haha....
having my 2 weeks holidays....
hope i can recap again my energy for coming days...

i will be back!!!

special friends visit

ha...
today is the special day
received 2 call....
1st from my mum best friend....auntie Stella....
then is my best friend....Jay!!!
realize today lot of people wanna to visit me...
hehe...feel proud!!!swt!!!
meet up my auntie ...and her 2 sons!!!!
clement...the elder son....longtime did not see him...
em...still the same....
the second son....jin yi....haha....became big boy!!!
haha....change!!!!em....with new hair style too....
anyway....
the best thing to share.....
is my 2 special guest friends .....
friends that did not meet up for few years......
should say....is a gathering for us too...
ha...having a great time together with them....
talk back secondary school life story!
miss all that....
more will share with you guys after my exam....
my 2 special friends...Jay and kai xiang!!!
happy journey to Pangkor later ya....
hope to see more pics from both you soon in you guys blog!!!

share more after my exam....
monday having my exam....
scare....
but....today ....whole day i did't study at all....
guess....tonight cannot sleep di
haiz....
all best in my final...
pray that i can pass all....
God bless me...and everyone!!!!

suffering days

wanna thanks to friends that always care about me...
em...i am lucky to have you all...
wanna thanks sister ee ling for her special card...
is special and nice...
very surprised when i received it...
the words touched my soul...
and recharge again my life
"when the sea gets rough"
and i can see the light...
and Lord Jesus is the light!!!

during study week....
i still fine...
still energetic...active...
still have Fun for my own sometime...

until the examination started...
everything change!!!
the bad things happen...
stress came 1st...
then diarrhea ....
then....Flu...
then...Fever...
then...finally...my body breakdown....
the most special medicine...
the salt???
well...Doctor order not to eat for this evening...
feeling hungry right now...
but can't do anything...
wanna recover need to listen to Doctor advice
Sad....
and all that spend my RM50....

try to sleep after the Doctor....
cannot sleep....
cause serious Fever came out....
got high fever...
can't even rest well...
then ask CHi kong buy me the Koolfever
it really works....
felt comfortable when i used it...
haha....that great!!!
wanna got kill by this Fever.....
em...really need to rest more...

the girl before exam...
and after exam...
different huh...
look at my face....
arrggh.....not nice di...

not only that....
the medicine..
i hate medicine...
but what to do??
cause fall Sick...
if i don't take it...
it will be more serious!!!
previously force by friends to see Doctor...
but...i still don't want to go..
finally ...during the examination today....
can't take it anymore...
decided to see Doctor...
cause the medicine i bought in pharmacy no Used!!!
it not works....
and here is the medicine i gonna to take...
all separate in 1/2 hours each...
complicated.....swt!!

and then....
look at my room...
Massey!!!!
haiz...is time to arrange!!!
hehe...it also show i really STUDY!!!
hahaha....

and today wanna Thanks my buddy...
Miss kah yee...and Johnny jackson...
Thanks friends for accompany me the whole afternoon...
Thanks for fetching me here and there...
love you all so so much!!!
very appreciated to have you all....
Thanks...
recovering now....
hope tomorrow can cover completely
GOd heal me ...

My body break down

exam days counted ....had passed 2 papers....
3 more papers to go....extra extra effort please~~

bla finish!!!...today......while doing my test....running nose...
ish...i hate that feeling...can't concentrate...
wearied 3 clothes together into the examination hall...swt!!!

last night...suffered the most....
force by friends to see Doctor...
but...tell you...i hate Doctor too...hehe...
correct to say...i hate medicine...
but...still need to take medicine....
today...spend RM14 for just few pills of medicine..
oh my...Expensive....em...count...i had spent lot
with all the body breakdown reason....sad!!!
waste money...reduce my motivation to study....
fever...headache...diarrhea ....damn suffering!!!
got FLU too....it the most suffered part....
shit....i hate illness ....please go away from me...
wanna study but...my body not allow me to do so...
arrrgh.....i hate it~~~~~~
please let me free Mr.illness....
i wanna healthy body to sit for my exam....
no more Sickness please....
get away thanks~~~~
Lord just pray that i can pass all papers...
i don't want take all this subject again...

cause Utar no longer having resist paper...
all repeat paper....means need to study from the beginning...
i want to be Safe rate...

no reason

Nothing
maybe the feel of Stress
feel nothing
oh my...
today whole day i DO NOTHING
too bad...
930pm my brain still blank
oh....that is a bad feeling
please go away from me...
sudden feel there is a shoulder for me...
i need it!!!!