been long ...
don't know what...when...how...
it's happen... heart feel NOTHING??Mad??
well...really can't read the words in my heart...
whether it's too much of language in it?
or there too much of things inside?or??
em...well...today will feel this bad feeling..
don't know what i want...no direction sudden..
even i know my way leading my God...
but there's a very weird feeling today...
is it too much of things to consider?
family,studies,CG,CF,friends,final exam??
the most flowing up problem i guess...??
yesterday received lots of email...
after reading all these message...stuck!!
em...sometime i was just thinking...
what is the purpose a christian in society?school?church?
em...do every of the christian know about the main?
i am not very sure...maybe sometime i wasn't a good leader...
i mess up??or what??well...the proper way to lead!
really hope there will have someone to guide us.
just read a passage from a paper...spiritual...
well..Lord...felt sorry...i regret that i don't do well
in my spiritual..i know that is important...
i loss....am i??but i know God is in front of me!
em...i know the knowledge...the true..the way..
but why still i feel lost sometime?
am my spiritual life too weak?
until this days all my emotion just carrying out?
i can't control??what happen to me??
am i too stress...or???burden??or...missing??
yes i guess so...so where in a deep jungle..ya
i can see the light...but i still stuck at the same place...
em...sound very sad huh...well...
is ok...always i will recovering my problem...
either write it out...sleep..eat...shout in house...
will be fine...Thanks God about that too...
so...every time.. bad emotional won't stay long!
don't worry my friend if you are reading this message
it's a arranging EQ in my life...
just talk to my heart through words...
well...feel some time...
friend...what that means so?
is that you are not there...you been forgotten?
well...i feel that too...
so..why said...human a not perfect...
that is the reason...caring..loving..
is a hard lesson to learn...and we must learn
how do we need to love people that is weird?
how??.....is hard right?but...we need too...
cause they are God's creation too...
God love them more than we are...
the day before...contact up a brother...
peoples that lost contact for few years..
very happy to heard from him again...
well..can feel the different!!!
that time we meet...i was 15...
and now i was 22...long...long...long!!
maybe i became more mature...yes i do!!
haha!!more pretty!!yes i am!!!haha!!
but will feel there is a little gab...
em...don't know...
am i facing communication problem?
am i????
and maybe i will ask this....
who am i???
haha....don't worry i know who am i!!!
just miss peoples around....just want to feel..
fellowship??em....well...ye...
hope i can meet back all old friends...
no regret in life anymore shirley...
make your Uni life interest...
shine for Christ!!!
oh...ye...is easy to write...
but..not easy to acting out...
yes...HARD!!!!
maybe i'm too noisy...
maybe i need to lock myself inside my room?
well...maybe i need to disappear??
which one to choose?
er...will feel a different shirley ya??
when you read this post...
am shirley such a downward sloping girl?
so down...so down???haha!!!
well...well...well...
is time to wash up the mess!!!
cleaning time!!!!
pray...bible study...bath!!
em...all best shirley i love you!!!haha!!
my life story start up
5 comments:
o...maybe u should go sing K......hehe....
my dear shirley,
i dunno hw to help u..
wat i can do is pray for u..
i am also always lose my direction...
u better than me,at least can see the light..
sumtime i can't even see the light...
for sure u r a good leader,especially in cell group..i learn a lot from u...
we r not born to be leader...everybody need to learn from failure so am i n u...
blive in god as well as urself..u can do it de...
be a cheerful lioness...
we din forget u even u r not here...
remember whenever u face problem,we r all here to back up u from behind...
may be u shud listen to vincent's advice...go to sing k,relax urself...
final exam is coming,we can't fall down..or else,we can able to cope with the exam...
lastly,gambateh!!!
GOd Bless YOu!!!
Love You ya!!!
W3ndY....
gal,
haha~ kind of depress feeling nw, n find tat u gt tat too.. so coincidence! although it's nt a gud thg~
lost huh.. really sometimes we dunno wat is happening... sometimes we dream, we plan, n yet nothg occurs... we may put a lot of effort and stil, come bk wif nothg, or even worst wif disappointment...
knowledge wif no action, thgs will not work out... but tis action really nid lots of faith in God to do so... so curious how would tat carry out, ha...
actually dear, i do think tat u did ur best ady... as we nid to play wif so many characters as an obedient child, caring frens, faithful christian, capable leader... nt easy ya...
once, i'm blaming myself nt doing a gud job, i gt no potential to b a gud leader, i'm wasting d opportunity tat God has given me... ya, so down... n tat oso keep reminding me nt to put faith on ppl...coz they wil let me down..
really nt a gud testimony... coz He asked me to care everyone wif caring heart, wif no choosing or comparing...hard, coz i stayed in my comfort zone for quite a time, to protect myself getting hurt...
wat is fren for...y i kept doing all tis thg tat done no gud to me...y i hv to walk so far only can reach d destination....
then a weak sound comes n said, u, r doing tis to glorify Me!
i must admit sometimes i gt different intention, only for d sake of myself n get lost..
dear, dunno how to comfort u~ but tis verse kept come into my mind...
"For i know the plans i have for you", says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope". In those days when you pray, i'll listen. If you look for me in earnest, you will find me. When you seek me, i'll be found by you. (Jeremiah 29:11-14)
dear, i once watched a programme.. n there is a guy was so down bcoz he gt nothg left, tat he asked his fren, "who am i"... n u wonder wat d fren had told him... he said, 有我在... haha, quite funny but touching... jz to tell u, Godfather wif u, i'm here too~
i'm glad i hv u in my life, everytime i wrote u comment, i'm learning oso...
love u, my little angel~
big big hug for u!
nothg is impossible wif God! jz come to Him! yes, we both together gambate in everythg we do...
^^
lost right now but definitely you will find your way when you come back again. Hope everything will be fine for you after the weekend. Just enjoy your weekend with ur dearest parent and friends without no worry ok?
gambate ya!! love you~
hehe.. well, i guess everyone ll hav the same prob like u sometimes.. i do 2.. but bcoz we r christian, we r God's son n daughter, HE ll lead us through.. =) so, kampar-teh la!!
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