Reborn

*cake i bought to make myself happy!!  =)

tonight will be another wonderful night to everyone...

Night that change many things...

and i realize that...

when we really FORGIVE others....

you will totally felt so free....

you will felt release from the burden....

and i knew that God will use different ways 

to show us His love....

tonight is really a special night to everyone...

i believe most of you have the same feeling huh!!

ya....I really wanted to Thanks God for that!!

God really bring all of us together again...

and i believe that God will have big plan in us...

and He will never made us for defeat!!!

when we want to show our love to God....

we shall first love the others...

love those that you don't love with....

Thanks Moses for the verse too....

This verse really helped me lots...

The Lord said: 

<< If anyone says, "I love God," yet hates his brother,

he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, 

whom he has seen, cannot love God, 

whom he has not seen. And he has given us this command: 

whoever loves God must also love his brother. >>

1John 4:20-21

and i really learned to love...

when we know how to love...

then we will  forgive others...

here's is the time for us to reconcile with each others...

and you know what....

I love the feeling of being forgive by others...

this is awesome!!

Satan is trying to pull us out...

but by God's grace...we will come together again!!

Love God, LOve others...

excited with the JOY

long journey

there is lots of things happen....

and i believe that is call......" the life"...

with all difficulty...

challenge...

sometime .....

will felt that....i'm walking alone...

but....one important msg to me is...

God will always be with me....

and i know the journey will not be so lonely anymore...

cause I'v GOd's grace with me!!

and that is the awesome things in life....

when we always give thanks..

we will see wonderful things...

and what....

GOD NEEDS YOU!!!

that the msg i got it last night...

that SHOCK me!!!

and i found my answer now!!

selfish

1245am right now...

ya...my eyes condition still not fine yet...

still my own problem....

need to rest more for my eyes...

but recently I'v lots of problems...

ya.....out of no where i will feel stress....

i will feel lonely.....

even i know that i'm not!!!!

anyway....today i received a call from my bro-in-law!!

ya...whenever he call....there's always something...

if not he would call.....

and ya....today he asked me to find room for his sis...

and ya...previously i heard that she already settle...

but today.....she want to change her mind...

well......for my own-self....

i feel stress if she stay with me....

but what to do???

i already get the order from him.....

haiz...bla bla with my friends during lunch...

and now i realize that .....

I'M SO SELFISH!!!!

why not i take up the responsible....

but sometime i'm thinking....

why not i have my own FREEDOM?

why not????

peoples around me trying to control me....

even my mum didn't do that to me...

why you????arrrrrggghhh!!!!!

 and recently weather getting HOTTER!!!

and i think of the berry juice....

even is bit bitter.....

and i think that is LIFE!!!!

ya....life is always full of challenge and problems....

and while i'm share with my friends during lunch....

i can feel that .....they will think that i'm selfish...

why not i take care for his sis??

but you know what???

i just feel so unsecured....

i always felt that when she is around...

everyone will only care for her...but not me!!

that is what i don't like to stay with her...

i will feel that i'm the servant after-all....

i need to settle everything for her....

and no one will think of me then.....

arrrrrggghhhh..........i want to cry!!!

i really wanted to get one place to hide myself...

i miss my own cheerfulness .....

i miss time that no worries...

i miss those time that i can just be so relax.....

but you know what....

2 days...i hide myself in room...

watching movie on pps.....

just to control myself not to think of anything...

even my eyes getting very pain.....

but i still make myself to forget something...

ya....i don't like the feeling of being control....

and during this quiet night...

i miss my mum so much!!!

and every time i think that no one care me...

i will think of my mum that in mambau....

ya and i know she don't hope that.....

i being so weak when problem occur...

instead she want me to be strong....

and she always believe that i can!!!

she never give up on me....

even i have failed before...

she still encourage me....

and i know i shouldn't make her worried....

and i shall live wonderful in my Uni life....

and i don't like to see others "faces" to live...

your reaction......

and all those stupid anger don't showed to me!!

I am not your MUM!!!!

~~~angry!!!~~~

however......

all my friends.....don't worry....

i just wanted to express out everything....

recently there is something that disturbing me...

and make me feel uncomfortable...

so ...today just bla out everything...

i hope i will be fine....

i need not to think of everything again.....

and i don't like people to control my life!!

i mean it!!!!!!aaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!

well..ya kahyee n jason invited me to TI...

and ya i really wanted to go....

but today with all those bad emotional...

i guess hardly to go TI already!!!

sorry lah buddy!!!

i just need time to clear off all the anger!!

and ya... saw a dog yesterday....

and i think of my aunt's dog...

hahaha...and i miss this dog too...

he's crazy...he can drink wine!!!

not in good condition

disturb by some issues!!

Is 2:45am

this week CF we having a special birthday celebration ....

for those whose birthday between Jan -April

and Thanks Wendy lee for the great prepare....

well....Melvin creative idea of course~~

haha....and all the members....

who excited for the surprised!!!

and ya...i enjoyed!!! :)

** well last week i saw this design book in a shop...
and i like it~
it been so special huh....ya....it is!!!

but also...i felt like I'm always in the "flying" condition...
I've no ideas with this....
but however....
i need some green things for myself...
maybe trees for leaf!!! hahaha....
ya...and there is many peoples asking me this....
what is actually friends???
what is trust???
what is forever???
well....all this...have been questioning us ....
whether we really treat it serious or not??
to be Honor or not???
well that is the question!!!

but this evening I'v a good walk in the garden....
even is tired since so long i didn't jog...
but today again i felt the sweat from my body...
and that is the awesome things...

again i have a great dinner from the church aunties...
and i have good time too...

*Thanks wendy loo for the big apple DONUTS!!
i love it~~

everyone is on heat

sushi

nana...nene nene pupu pupu....

haha....just for fun....

anyway....

late birthday celebration to our lovely uncle jason!!

haha...sorry for the late celebration ya!!!

hahaha...hope you enjoyed it ok!!!!

after all presentation ,assignment n tests...

finally we can enjoy with you with release heart!!

ya.....the coffee cake hope you will like it!!!

tada~~ the birthday uncle!!!!

hahaha....

wish all dream come true!!!

get a girl friend this year!!!

very happy to have a friend like you....

even just 2 years...

but...you are really a good friend to me!

friendship forever jason!!!

jason n kahyee

jason n ah shui

jason n MJ

** kahyee asked thanks for??

ya...Thanks for being my friend....

have a wonderful time in sushi king!!

i love sushi!!~~

eyes pain

end

finally everything end...
last presentation of this semester...
and very glad that I have a great experience again...
Thanks to my dear heavenly father~

the place that bring the joy....
the place that i met all the youth...

i gonna miss you all~~
and Thanks to all my friends....
kahyee, jason, mj ....

nene+pupu

nene+pupu

haha...there's no meaning for that....

just coding of "happy" for me...

ya...finally i'm out from the zone of darkness...

and ya...I'm the victory for the game...

and ya...my friend asked for funny post...

ya i know you are trying to cheer me...

and ya...maybe is not funny enough...

but...I'm good!!!

and ya...right now...fight for assignment...

suffer for 3 more days...

going to attend youth camp in PD!!!

and ya...miss the time as youth...

and ya...I am still young what!!!

hahaha....

and special Thanks to...

my cute dear-Michele for the supporting :)

cute Isabelle for the fruit CAKE on sunday...

sweet Kara for the ice-cream,Kit-kat and banana cake!!

sister Wendy for the cameron strawberry....
kelvin for the bible verse....
chipmunks Melody for the encourage msg!!

and my dear dear -kahyee....for everything!!!

special wish to my best friend here....

UNCLE JASON WONG!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YA!!!

sorry this week we all busy with assignment...

celebrate with you after assignment ya!!!

gambateh....

LOve all my friends...

Love my family...

LOve you who reading my blog!!

X.O.X.O

shirley love u!!!

hungry...waiting for my dinner~

no end

maybe the way i handling is to keep silent..

that's why you will feel that I'm ignoring...

or I'm trying to push you away...

but..I just want to say that...

between us there is no end relationship...

and friend for me...forever it is....

and I'm sorry for whatever that i did is wrong...

maybe I'm too bad in handling things...

I'm bad in communication...

that's why I'm always misunderstood by others...

and ya....i just want to apologize to all friends...

if any I've hurt you...

or you felt that I'm not thinking at your site...

I'm sorry...

but..I just want to protect each one of you...

because I will not left out anyone of my friends...

cause I really treat that seriously...

friendship for me is never end...

even you dislike me...

you hate me...

you cannot understand...

but...I just want to apologize...

again.....I'm sorry

I just hope i can be a great friend...

to everyone of you...

cause I love all my friends...

and I'm always admiring peoples that have close friends...

neither me....

rushing for assignment...

but felt that I'm screwed up everything!!!

lion becoming cat

today just to write...

ya...not feeling so well today...

not because I'm sick...

not because I'm lost my mind...

well...ya... bit...

ya...i just feel like I'm not good at all...

even sometime I think I am...

but today...

I just screwed up everything...

and I'm totally not fine now~

even I'm trying to calm down myself...

trying to do something to attract my attention~

well...totally failed i guess!!!

i believe lots my friends gonna scold me too~

and ya especially my best friend...

and what i want to say....

i will try ya...

go forward for another step...

Thanks for the msg & call...

i will be fine after today!!

lion becoming the cat today!!

moody cat~

moody~anyone can cheer me please?

bE baBy

always be happy...
that's my life coding....
and now...just to write...
i always tell me
since i've been so long didn't update my post...
ya...and ...i could say...
there is lots of things happen around me...
lots of friends having problems....
 ********
and me myself busy with everything...
assignment...mid-term...sleepy...

and ya...
like i...always like to make peoples around me ...
to be happy...
coding in my life~~
BE A GOOD CHEER . (john16:33)
and ya..is hard when i see someone that is very down...
having problems...sad...
and i wish to cheer them up~
and ya...wish all friends that in bad motion...
you guys will overcome all that...
take time ya!!
and remember i love you all!!
always here for you all...
CHEER~

and i always wish that one day i can play violin...
and ya...i love this guy...
how he play....is unique!!
special...hope i can play one day..
and he's my Idol~
i like his violin too...
haha...i guess is very expensive!!

last week i watched a tv program from Oprah!!
and i realize this special group of girls...
4 pretty violists ....
i love them~
admirer....
i like their glass violin too~
: )

and also...susan boyle...
there's one special person that influence me lots...
that SURPRISED me lots too!!!
like her brave to looking forward for her dream!!
and ya...there's one thing come to my mind...
i should really think about my dream...
even i have lots...ya...lots...
which is the best that i want?
i should learn from her...
even peoples don't believe from her 1st audition...
but finally everyone love her voice...

and the best man i like...
even he hurt lots peoples...
Simon....great judge...
he's cool huh!!! haha...
ya he is...

oprah....
she is knowledgeable...
love to watch her Tv program...
ya...she is awesome...
one of my favourite ... :)

well...sometime we should love our-self too..
like how i love me....
looking around for the great things in life...
even sometime will disappointed me...
bad things happen...
attack from else where...
and ya...i hope i can cope with that...

be crazy in life...
be funny...
be cheerful...
and that is me...
i should always maintain this...
cause i always believe...I have lots peoples love me..
and i know lots peoples care of me...
so i must take good care of myself!!!
live happy in life...

sadness will always happen...
cause that is one of the part in life...
life journey is always facing different of challenge...
tear ...is how i express...
but...i really don't like the feeling...
but i believe cry... is one of the healing part...
after cry...will feel better....

but...
i still face my life positively...
even sometime i might not...
get surprised for all things i have...
oh!!!!
hahaha...and i love surprised!!!
even sometime scare me...
but i love SPECIAL!!
and that is me!!

*brother in law sister's daughter!!
the best is...
be like a BABY!!!
haha...ya...they no worries...
just do whatever they want...
cry...laugh....crazy....naughty
hehe....
and you know what???
i hope i can be a baby too...
maybe one day...
my husband should treat my like baby...
hahahaha....
swt~

sleep now...tired!!

My potrait on the BIG day

 

 personally i like this pic...

then i just putted up as 1st...haha...

look nice huh!!! haha...

look bit slimmer huh!!!

hahaha...ya my face look smaller...hahaha!!!

Thanks to my best friend- Jayz...

after shoot he came to visit me last year....

here's another chance for him to take my shoot...

during my sister wedding!!!

and ya...i fall love to be the model....

if....is my best friend are the photographer...

haha...not everyone i will be so free to .....

be like me!!!

will maybe be KAKU....or what....

em...smile like orang batu!!!hahaha....

and ya...i just realize some nice pics...

that taken during my sister wedding...

ya...before i post about  my sister wedding....

let post up some pics i like...

and I'm one of the photographer too...

since my friend brought two camera that day!!

haha....yeah...check it out....Portrait of mine.....

and here's the morning ....

early morning....7am...haha

 shirley with the Canon Dslr....

haha...very happy...

always when Jayz was around...

i can play with his camera...

and that day he brought two....

that's why i have chance to play....

while he using another cam to shoot on me...

haha...nice huh.....

haha....

very happy....because is my sister's wedding....

forever on one day....

while waiting for my brother in law...

haha...

this pic looks so different...

i remember one my friend told me this.....

"shirley, if you don't shout....you are beautiful!!"

haha...ya and i really agree with this...

and yup...i will try not to shout anymore ok...

hahah....cause i'm the pretty girl!!! haha

shirley with another camera again...

bored to stay in room....

then i went down....

take some of the pics of what the girls doing there...

haha...and ya...

I'm look professional too huh!!!

ya...agree!!!

 and time to get back to the room...

and ya...he is outside the room....

and i'm the one to open the door...

haha the door opener....

time to enter the church....

time to make the promise in front of God!!

and...that is really the awesome day...

 and....the touched part....

I.....

shirley cried!!!! ya.....

 anyway....is still....a happy day...

finally we went back to the new house of them...

and i bless them have a great life ever...

and ya....

i suppose to study...

but...i playing online...ah...too bad...

get back to study....

my friends gonna kill me if they know i'm blogging...

ops...ok...time to study....

haha...within one day i wrote 2 posts!!!

ok...get minor flu...

guess...lack of sleep...

The interview-part1

ha....

i just wonder what should i write...

cause I've lot of things to share...

many pics to upload...

and ya...recently busy with assignment and test...

especially this week....

full with books and journals on my bed...

haha...but still...I enjoyed some nice movie~
like- !!

bad huh...ya...i admit!!!

anyway... :p
share my Cameron trip that i went previously!!
for my assignment purpose....
very happy while doing work....
we enjoyed too.... happy~
not many pics i posted...
due to the problem while i upload....
i think the pics file too big??
maybe.... swt~

early we reached Cameron....
of course....we had our breakfast~
and nothing look different....
we can have it anywhere...
but the problem is.....
the weather is damn nice~~

while on the way to BOH TEA company...

we saw couple taking wedding pics there...

sweet huh!!!~~ 

and after we meet up with the manager...
dress up like professional....
time for the visiting the progress of tea!!

here we go~

examining room...
manage to quality control ....
haha...we look serious huh~

here's the tea leaf....
they will examining it twice a day...
to make sure the leaf is on good condition...

and....is me!!!
oh...too bad....my eyes beg .....

haha...saw my friend's name here...
hahaha....

finally done~~
with the handsome manager!!

and the workers cutting the leaf!!!

after we done our interview...
time for FUN!!!!
yup...we went back to another branch of BOH TEA..
here's my best friend- Kahyee

and my groupmate- MJ

another groupmate-Jason

enjoy our tea time with the great environment ....
my passion fruit tea....

and the mango cake i like...
haha....more to come next post....

blur blur....with my mid-term...